manipulation!!!!!!!!!

01.18.06 (11:23 am)   [edit]

heylo everybody! im so glad the bitch that i call my ex read my entry and now she knows what an undescribable slut she is! shes not worth any agony or pain that she puts everybody through! now i feel sorry for my friend who is hurting over this bitches stupid ass lies and manipulation! shes always hurting this girl and she does it so she can make her cry like its fun and games! im not surprised that she did it again she does it so she cant be with the girl and the girl ends up killing herself! i think shes a murderer in some form! she depresses the girl so much that the girl wants to kill herself and i think thats awful! i hope the legal system finds this bitch to be a murdering slut and im considering going to somebody about this bitch who makes every bodys life a living hell!!!!! she made my life hell! she made me mad and upset and hurt and i could have killed her but instead i got over her before she would destroy me like she did to kyle and now this girl!!!! she deserves a punishment! she deserves to be hit! she deserves to be locked up and choked and strangled and beaten until she gets her sense knocked into her thick skull!!!! the girl isnt even pretty and she has this control over ppl and she LOVES IT! she needs to be stopped and ruined before she gets to any body else and i feel bad for any body else that has to suffer with her deceitful lies and manipulation! and i feel bad because i knew it was coming and now shes sad!!! im her friend and now shes fucked up because of her!!!! and now she wants the manipulator back!!!! WHY?!?!?!?!?!??!?!! come on!!! she isnt worth shit!!!!! shes fat and shes ugly!!!! shes stupid and shes a bitch!!!!! and kyles with the girl i kind of like and that pisses me off and hes starting to be a prick to me!!!! and i could hit the fucker! im not taking any shit from any body! so fuck you kyle because you are a fucking asshole! i wish you all would stick it to jessie and just gang up on her and kill her! she isnt worth shit and shes fat and i hate her and if i could kill her i would! aside from bitching about jessie and her manipulation im ok im sick today! ---------------ryan

damn pizza

01.16.06 (12:12 am)   [edit]
i like nasya! shes so special to me and i tell her and she knows and yet i still feel like a total coat rack when i talk to her. im talking to her about pizza im a total dip! im hungry and im eating pizza but the point is im telling the girl i like a lot that im eating pizza, im just a loser i guess and i have no skill with women. or i have no skill with nasya! so ive liked this girl for A LONG TIME and shes a hottie no joke if you saw her you would be like hot diggity damn dawgy you like a hott ass chick and i would be like damn right i do, party on! other than that stuff i really am bored tonight i worked and i came home i watched tv and i ordered pizza and then i got hungry and heated it back up yeah i have no life!

wow its been a long time since ive written

01.15.06 (9:54 am)   [edit]
ok now i used to have a tblog a long ass time ago like in 2003 or 2004 and that was so long ago. things have sure as hell changed since then, i like the new template thing thats pretty cool and how they arent asking for money to make your blog look cool. i like the updates, thats a plus. i guess ill give details here! i dont like myspace, its an excuse for a trendy train. far too many people use myspace and the website is always having errors and its always being fixed for something! its slow as hell and i hate it. i refuse to use it, ive always liked tblog better. a lot more....friend oriented, where myspace is a huge popularity contest to have the most friends on your list. woo-hoo! cant you just see the excitement? my names ryan, im 18 from NY. ive been into some bad shit plenty of times, been through rehab, been through hell and im back again with a new job and trying to keep myself healthy and fixed. i dont care if you have negative comments, ill have negative comments about myself! you are your only judge and if nobody likes you then its their loss and they can go sit on it. im single and i like somebody, liked her for a long time! i think shes great and we finally got to talk last night. i guess im disappointed that she found somebody else and its cool that she has, but it kinda makes me sad. she was the girl that influenced me to be a better person and i always had eyes for someone else and i hope that bitch can read this because shes a fucking whore and shes ugly. im not trying to be vulgar and rude, but she really screws with your feelings and hurts people like its her hobby in life! she thinks shes hott and shes really ugly i hope you all know! she turned out to look like a human mushroom and she turned out to be a liar. i hope she has a nice life being by herself because she will hurt my friend again and then she will be an asshole and take control and i just dont like her! im so glad to be over her and retarded shit! i like nasya ryan